hoyi's Weblog

You should have known what I'm going to talk about if you know what the title means. You can take the photo as a clue, but I'm not going to explain more - it's not because I don't want to. I just cannot. I'm such a patient, a shipper, and definitely, a file-phile. And guess what, though it has already been more than 10 years, I'm still fascinated with the series, in which I had have the very first role-model of my life. I know it sounds quite stupid, but it's her that made me struggle for a better "me" while I was like 15. I wanted so badly to be as sober, wise and glamorous as she was - or to say, as the role was. 我猜我愛的不只是那些見於工作能力的表象。有些被編劇塑造得很成功的所謂特質，從那時開始就深深影響我的價值觀：在專業上的全力以赴、在友伴間的忠誠包容、在困境中的有為有守，還有在感情上的淡靜、壓抑、倔強，和謹守份際又不得不蹂身撲火的矛盾。一幕幕回顧她的妙語如珠、她嚴謹卻又溫柔的態度，驀然發現那些形象已經成為我追尋的核心－－即使那是個並不真實存在的形象。 若照我的粗疏跳脫和狂躁，我將畢生不會成為那樣洗鍊的一個女子。夢想畢竟是美好而遙遠的。我只能一步一步向前奔跑，能跑得到多遠、離目標多近，那又是另一回事了。 我只希望在我在乎的人面前，我能是somebody that you can always count on.